You know me. I used to be optimistic about the future, I usually get excited with new things that’ll happen to us and you were always the one who was scared of everything—like taking the big leap from premed in taft to med school in dasma. But then again, people say that if you’re holding on to something that’s very important to you— sometimes the fear of the unknown, which is the future, can be daunting. 2nd year med is just around the corner. This means new set of classmates (which unfortunately we are gonna suffer from), new classes, new lessons to learn, and new…everything. I’ll be missing you a lot in class because it’s the first time that we’re gonna be apart ever since premed. Dahil hindi na tayo classmates because your surname is far from mine (A is 12 alphabet letters away from N), this means no more planner vandalizing…no more talking during class…no more cramming together…no more quick fixes in 7/11 during 10-minute breaks in class, and most especially no one’s gonna be waking you up in between your lectures naps… I’m gonna miss all of that. I bet there will be a lot of adjustments. :) I feel like I can compare all these to someone who has a withdrawal from something that he has been addicted to for several years now—you know, the first few days could be awful. This sucks big time.

But then again, I’ve held on to the assurance you guaranteed me when I was scaredof us having different fields of specialization in medicine, pero eto yung sinabi mo sakin: ”yun nga.. di natin kayang icontrol yung mga mangyayari.. pero kung ano man ang mangyari… we’ll still keep in touch ah! separation may bring us apart physically, but not the special bond we have.”

Then I kept on insisting that there is actually a big possibility that we’re gonna be separated from each other and we may not have the luxury of time to spend with each other because there will be times that our patients will always be our priority. But then you made me cry because you told me: “Yun nga rin..pero kung sakaling mangyari..I would never grow apart from you.” 

I just want you to know that I really really felt bad when I heard that we’re not gonna be classmates this year because there is a big possibility that we’re not gonna be able to do these things again. But I guess we have no choice and maybe this is part of God’s better plan for us. Hindi naman natin pwedeng i-edit yung surname natin para maging Narcaira o kaya naman Azareno. :)) So I guess the best thing I could think of is that we should just go with the flow and let old things and habits go to welcome the new ones, right? This means new experiences in Med with you. I’m gonna be looking forward to each new one we’ll have, but I’m sure I’m gonna miss everything we used to do together. Hopefully we can still have lunch…and who knows, if our schedule permits maybe also dinner time so we could catch up. :)

(via littlemiss)